Listening to ...

Am I faithful, am I strong,
am I good enough to belong
In your reverie, a perfect girl?
Your vision of romance was cruel
and all along I played the fool.
All your expectations buried me.

[Chorus]
Don't worry, you will find the answer if you let it go.
Give yourself some time to falter
But don't forgo, know that you're loved no matter what
And everything will come around in time.

I own my insecurities,
I try to own my destiny
That I can make or break it if I choose.
But you take my words and twist them 'round
Til I'm the one who brings you down
Make me feel like I'm the one
to blame for all of this...

[Chorus]
Don't worry, you will find the answer if you let it go.
Give yourself some time to falter
But don't forgo, know that you're loved no matter what
And everything will come around in time.

You need everybody
with you on your side.
Know that I was here for you
but I hope in time
You'll find yourself alright alone,
You'll find yourself with open arms,
You'll find yourself,
you'll find yourself in time.

The riot in my heart decides
to keep me open and alive
I have to take myself away from you
'Cause I can't compete, I can't deny
there's nothing that I didn't try.
How did I go so wrong in loving you?

[Chorus]
Don't worry, you will find the answer if you let it go.
Give yourself some time to falter
But don't forgo, know that you're loved no matter what
And everything will come around in time.


Perfect Girl, Sarah McLachlan





Dusting off ...

Driven by the promise
of a possibility,
we came to find
the ruby rim, the edge,
but, of course
(we should have known),
there never really is an edge,
or there is but it is
always folding in on itself,
taking us straight back
to the plain old center
where all the small sufferings occur.

Expected, SMO c. 2002


Considering ...

giving up and going to sleep. I have a long day tomorrow and the alarm goes off in about 3 hours. I have two posts in the works and they are biggies ... I worked on them for most of tonight but I just can't seem to wrap my head around anything that meaty right now.

Great ... I've become a mental vegetarian.