tired

I don't remember when I have ever felt so tired. I know after the surgery I was having a hard time getting my muscles going again and I got tired very easily. But now I feel more than tired. I'm growing more and more apathetic.

Maybe its a reaction to being unable to change anything that I stop trying, sort of a survival mechanism when situations get toxic and my anxiety level reaches dangerous levels. It might sound like a lot of psychobabble but I've felt this before (and even got the diagnosis to prove it!) and I have an uphill climb ahead of me.

First things first, though. I need to get out of that school and get AWAY for the summer.